Si took a new job in December. Truth be told, he had to. He was laid off from his previous job. They told him in October. I'm still not sure why they let him go. Maybe they weren't busy enough. Maybe Si was too expensive of an employee. Maybe Si didn't do the paperwork the way they wanted. I don't know. Si took a new job December 15th. Since December 15th he has been out of town for 9 days (8 nights). Soon he will go out of town again, but this time for two weeks straight. TWO WEEKS.
That means, for that two week period, I am a single mom to three young children. A single mom who is also working full time, going to school, running the social events for our non-profit multiples organization, trying to make it to violin practice on time, doing a gazillion loads of laundry because the girls HAVE to wear three outfits a day and (surprise!) one of the kids peed the bed (again), and I'm trying to find time to cook a wholesome meal for my family (screw it, we may live on mac and cheese and hot dogs while Si's gone!). It is exhausting. I have a whole new respect for single parents, I truly do.
My post for the New Year introduced my word for the year: Joy. Finding joy in the little things. But holy crap....it is HARD. I know my kids are growing at the speed of light. I know soon they will be in school and won't want to hang out with me at. all. But for now, I am having difficulty having fun being a mom. I'm probably too busy. I get that. I did that to myself. I do have to work full time, so that's a given, but school? Is that really necessary? What about my volunteer work? If I gave some of these other things up, would I be better able to find the joy in my kids??? I'm not so sure.
How on earth are you supposed to know if you are doing the right things? How do you decide what is most important? I know I am asking questions that don't have any real answer, but it's helpful to know that I'm not the only one thinking this stuff. I'm not, am I?! This mom gig is hard!!
I will leave you with a picture of each of the kidlets...in all of their growing-up-too-fast goodness.
Mr. Hudson - Age 2.5
Miss Olivia (left) and Miss Brianna (right)- Age 4
Have a great weekend peeps!
Until next time -