Coming up for air....

Little Hudson is 2 weeks old already!  Our helpers are now gone, and we have been on our own with our crazy toddlers and a newborn since Sunday. 

It's almost a daily occurrence that I have to choose between taking a shower or a much needed nap.  9 times out of 10 I opt for the shower. LOL. I remember having this issue with the girls, and I almost always chose the nap.  This indicates to me that I was WAY more tired with the girls than I am with Hudson.  Either that, or I perceive myself to be smellier this time around =).

Here is an AWFUL picture of me choosing the other option...sleeping on the couch with baby Hudson...no make up...hair a mess...a total real life picture!

We are doing well overall.  We are all in a state of transition, but we haven't had any major issues.  The girls ask for "baby" every morning when they get up which is super cute. Livvy loves to "hold" him, burp him, swing him...essentially be his second mommy =). Unfortunately what isn't super cute is the jealousy the girls both seem to be feeling towards him.  They want their mommy time too.  Hudson is nursed so he gets TONS of mommy time each day.  The girls are totally getting shafted in the mommy time department at this point, and there's nothing I can do about it.  I don't have the energy to give them the attention that they crave so desperately, and physically I just can't do what I could before I had the c-section.

Speaking of the c-section, this c-section recovery has been WAY better than my recovery with the girls.  I've been so relieved! Part of it is very likely that I only had one child this time and none of the nasty stuff (like pre-eclampsia, gestational diabetes, etc.) that I ended up with last time, but part of it too I think is that I knew what to expect (especially the pain and the limitations I would have post surgery).  

I have to tell you though, it has been SO hard not being able to pick up my girls.  Originally when I thought about not being able to pick up the girls, I thought just that. Oh, so if they fall down on the sidewalk, I won't be able to pick them up. I didn't think, oh, but you can't pick them up to put them on the changing table to change their diapers, or pick them up to lay them in their cribs, or pick them up to put them in their car seats, or pick them up to put them in the bathtub, or pick them up to put them in their highchairs, etc, etc, etc.

They don't understand AT ALL.  I have shown them my "ouchie", and they just don't get it.  They still want to jump on top of me and play and roughhouse.  They still want me to pick them up.  They still want me to lay them down in bed for the night or pick them up to soothe them when they are hurt.  And I can't.  Which essentially means that I can't take care of my toddlers on my own.  I have to have someone else here with me. Probably for another several weeks. UGH. What a crappy feeling!

We are definitely still making the best of it though.  The girls LOVE having mommy home every day and being able to read books, play puzzles, and dance in the sprinkler.  I'm looking forward to when my scar fully heals so I can take the girls to the pool.  I'm essentially off work all summer after all - we HAVE to get some pool time in, right?!

Here's a totally fun picture of the girls coloring in the bathtub - thanks Aunt Sylvia and Uncle Josh for bringing us bath crayons!! We love them!

Anyway, I am being beckoned once again by the not-so-tiny newborn known as Hudson, so I must wrap this up.  Sorry for my lack of blogging! I hope to become a better blogger again soon!!

Until next time -

Megan